A baby

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

When Bela and I married just over a year ago, we knew we wanted to start a family right away. So, for a year we tried to conceive, and while sometimes time is what it takes, during those 12 months I wondered if we would be able to have a biological child. I'm not so young anymore, in 'maternal years' that is, and so it was an emotional and deepening journey as I began to realize to a greater degree that just because God says no, it doesn't mean He loves me any less than when He says yes.

And, in time, He said yes.

12 weeks ago, to be precise.

I know we don't always get what we ask for or what we want. I've sat with friends who time and again get a, "No, not now," and the wait is painful, no matter what they are waiting for. And I'm not sure why at this point God said, "Yes" to us, although I'm so grateful He did.

I guess, what I'm trying to say, is that I hope this tiny baby in my belly is a reminder that He is still good.

I had a sonogram when I was 8 weeks, and after I wrote my family to tell them that so far, everything was good. My sister Jamie wrote me back and said: this little baby makes me love my Lord a little more today.

And that's what I'm hoping to say, it's my prayer. That every day this little one lives, someone would love Jesus a little more because of its life.



On Monday, Bela and I went to Bucarest to visit the doctor I've been seeing there and to have another sonogram. The doctor confirmed that I am 12 weeks and that all measurements are normal.

If you look closely at the pictures, it looks as if the baby is smiling, and in a couple as if its even sucking its thumb! (Still too little to do that, I think, although I read that it does begin the sucking motion at this point in it's gestation).

Bela thought it looked like me! He said it has my chin...the Folkertsma chin! (My dad tells the story of when I was born and he went to take a look at me in the hospital nursery for the first time, he didn't even need the name tag, he knew his baby by the chin, which closely resembled his own).

The baby was also moving around...so, if the baby looks like me, it may just have Bela's personality.



And so, we are thrilled. It's been a rough 6 weeks for me in terms of 'all day sickness' (rather than just morning sickness). I'm hoping that starts to end soon and I'll be able to blog regularly again. Of course you can expect more posts on this journey towards motherhood, but I also have lots to show from our trips this summer and, as always, of our life here in Romania.