Wednesday, September 08, 2010

A baby

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

When Bela and I married just over a year ago, we knew we wanted to start a family right away. So, for a year we tried to conceive, and while sometimes time is what it takes, during those 12 months I wondered if we would be able to have a biological child. I'm not so young anymore, in 'maternal years' that is, and so it was an emotional and deepening journey as I began to realize to a greater degree that just because God says no, it doesn't mean He loves me any less than when He says yes.

And, in time, He said yes.

12 weeks ago, to be precise.

I know we don't always get what we ask for or what we want. I've sat with friends who time and again get a, "No, not now," and the wait is painful, no matter what they are waiting for. And I'm not sure why at this point God said, "Yes" to us, although I'm so grateful He did.

I guess, what I'm trying to say, is that I hope this tiny baby in my belly is a reminder that He is still good.

I had a sonogram when I was 8 weeks, and after I wrote my family to tell them that so far, everything was good. My sister Jamie wrote me back and said: this little baby makes me love my Lord a little more today.

And that's what I'm hoping to say, it's my prayer. That every day this little one lives, someone would love Jesus a little more because of its life.



On Monday, Bela and I went to Bucarest to visit the doctor I've been seeing there and to have another sonogram. The doctor confirmed that I am 12 weeks and that all measurements are normal.

If you look closely at the pictures, it looks as if the baby is smiling, and in a couple as if its even sucking its thumb! (Still too little to do that, I think, although I read that it does begin the sucking motion at this point in it's gestation).

Bela thought it looked like me! He said it has my chin...the Folkertsma chin! (My dad tells the story of when I was born and he went to take a look at me in the hospital nursery for the first time, he didn't even need the name tag, he knew his baby by the chin, which closely resembled his own).

The baby was also moving around...so, if the baby looks like me, it may just have Bela's personality.



And so, we are thrilled. It's been a rough 6 weeks for me in terms of 'all day sickness' (rather than just morning sickness). I'm hoping that starts to end soon and I'll be able to blog regularly again. Of course you can expect more posts on this journey towards motherhood, but I also have lots to show from our trips this summer and, as always, of our life here in Romania.

17 comments:

Kathryn said...

Oh, April, what a gift to wake up this morning to pictures of your sweet baby! Ultrasound pictures don't usually "do it" for me, but they've got me all blubbery this morning. You, Bela, and Baby are in my prayers!

David B. said...

Congrats April & Bela!! So happy for you!

Thany said...

Praise God! I look forward to seeing your heart on this new journey for you. And I am so so terribly happy!!

monica said...

tears came to my eyes as i saw the title. we have been praying for you regularly and for baby. you guys are going to be the best parents ever!

jo said...

I love that baby soooo much!!!!! he is adorable!!!!!!!!

C.C. and Double T said...

SO cool! I would love to meet you someday when we find ourselves in Bucuresti. Should be February... :o)

John Koon said...

so, so, so happy for you guys!

Jennifer said...

Congratulations again! What an exciting time for you and Bela! I hope that you start feeling better soon! I can't wait to find out if the baby's a boy or a girl!

Rebecca said...

I am in awe. I love your baby. I love God a little bit more as well. I miss you. Can you skype soon?

Mel (AKA Dad, Grampa) said...

You have that maternal glow and it shows in your writing. I was going to post something about the chin but you beat me to it. #11 looks great! We pray for him/her regularly. Dad & Mom

Robin, Josh & Lukas said...

Add us to the long list of people who are praying for you and so happy for you three!

katherine anne said...

I AM SO EXCITED! :)

la femme elisabeth said...

Hoooooooooray! The first pics of Baby Ispas! Love her already. Yup, I said "her". ;)

Julie said...

Words cannot begin to describe the happiness I feel for you, April and Bela (whom I have never met, but love because he loves you). Having you be like a second mother to my 2nd grader several years ago as her teacher and knowing how much she loved you, makes me think this little one growing inside of you will grow up being so blessed with you as his/her mother. You will be in our prayers and savor these moments as God's miracle of life is happening inside you.
Julie

Stacy said...

Soooooo excited for you guys... sounds like the aunties are pulling for what they want.. too funny! This baby is a blessing and well loved already... congrats!

Callie Nicole said...

Congratulations, April! I'm so happy for you guys, and I'll be praying for a wonderful healthy pregnancy! What a precious gift.

Christy said...

Ahhhh, so fun, so sweet, so good. I think you summed it up pretty well. As our hearts desire is for our girls to impact the world for Christ as well. To leave a mark in peoples hearts and lives. To live outside themselves for even a moment. :) Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy. :)

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